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Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

Right?? I look fucking awesome on stage. Like a bird of prey or angelic demon.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

[ laughs. ]

And it suits your music from the little I've heard, too.

Are they just aesthetic?

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

Nah, I can fly. Or turn into a full-on bird if I want to.

[He leans back against the chair.]

I tried flying off the boat and into the horizon. I was able to, as well. I got almost as far as I could until the boat was just- [He lifts his fingers up] this tiny little speck. But...

[He sighs]

I can't just LEAVE everyone here. And it's not like I know how far land is from the boat. I imagine that's why the shitty thought police didn't strike. Because it knew I was gonna come back anyway.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

Is that happening at all still lately with anyone?

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

Yep. Flamingo decided to test it out for himself after I warned him. I guess he saw some pretty creepy creature when he tried. A long arm and bloodied claws? There was an ocean of blood, and he seemed convinced that we couldn't leave and would drown if we tried.

Aster also saw something weird when he tried. The two times I did, I never saw anything though? Just the incredible feeling that leaving was a bad idea, and if I tried to now, I would lose everything. That I wouldn't get this chance again. And the idea of that I guess was enough for me? I don't know what the difference is.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

...Hm. where did you get the idea in the first place to try it, anyway? Manifesting or something?

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

The Showmaster told me to do it.

I cornered her about all of her shit and told her I wanted to leave. She told me to feel free. That she wouldn't keep me here. To try wishing to go home and to clear my head of everything except the desire to go home.

[He runs a hand through his hair.]

She claims this has happened before but that she's not responsible for it. I don't know how much I believe her, though. Aster's said we had to 'get to the end'. Flamingo's something about drowning and how we should stay a little longer.

[ . . . ]

Interestingly enough, none of them have made it seem like we'll be stuck here forever. Just that now isn't the right time.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

Sorry, what's happened before?

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

That in the past, people tried to go home, but could not due to the same thing happening to them.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

... Now I'm beginning wondering where home is for us.

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

What do you mean?

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

If it's not the Showmaster responsible for preventing us from leaving in this manner, then does it think we mean some place other than the home we have here on Estoria? Like, technically, if it has nothing to do with our kidnapping on this boat, does whatever it is think we are home still as we know it and thinking we want to go somewhere else, and that's why it's telling us not to hurry? Why would we lose everything going home if home is where we've been taken from and deprived of? We haven't gained anything on this boat that could constitute as everything.

I guess I didn't really know what I mean, just that it feels like it doesn't make much sense to me to be going back home to shore as losing everything is possible or not the right time unless we're all somehow being headhunted.

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

I don't know. I don't really want to think of what the alternative means, though, either.

Makes me think of those freaky ass visions.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

Well, it doesn't really matter. Even if those visions are connected to us somehow, that's not what is going on current in out lives, so...

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

Thank god.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

Haha, yeah. Now, do you want to go to the lounge or should we bring dinner back here?

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

Either works for me.

Though actually... if we go to the lounge are we gonna have to hold hands the entire time we eat? Or just while ordering food?

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

Is that what we gotta do now? Geez.

I'm assuming once we get the order accepted it's fine... right?

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

I guess there's only one way to find out.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

Let's go, then! Unless you're not hungry yet?

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

Nah, let's eat. I've been looking forward to steak pizza ever since we spoke earlier.

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

Haven't even had it yet, haha! Can't wait to see what you think of it.

[ Sam gets up, going to head for the door and wait for Forte to come along. ]

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

[Time to head out... !]

I've practically been living off the appetizers there, the daily meals sent to the cabins, and the food made at the cafe.

[Except when Phoenix cooks he supposes.]

Re: Evening 228

[vapour]

The meals to the cabin leave something to desired but the lounge food isn't bad, I guess. Wish we didn't have to keep doing strange social-building activities to get the full menu, though...

[ Sam sighs dramatically as they walk. ]

Re: Evening 228

[untilldeath]

[He just glances at him from the corner of his eye and feels his lips curl up just a bit as they walk.]

Ah well. Could be worse than holding hands with an attractive guy for a few.